This sounds dramatic. It is. This week. It’s kind of been life changing. Not in a huge ‘I’ve had an epiphany’ kind of way. In lots of small ways. In ways that could only have happened because I had time for my mind. To wander.
I’ve realised how very important that is.
I spent five days in a well worn and well loved motor home (not mine I hasten to add… unfortunately!). In a field. Next to the beach. In Wales. Apart from the visit from the proud red and cheeky Robin and some chats with Tilly the three legged jack Russell (and her owners!) there wasn’t a lot going on. Perfect.
With my mind free of work and clocks and what to cook and where do I fit in exercise and self criticism over what I’ve drank or how little sleep I’ve had or who I haven’t seen or why the house is a mess. It was free of wondering whether I could shave 2 minutes off my drive to work or whether I felt guilty for leaving late. Free of 6am alarms and snatched lunches. Free of time holding me, instead I was holding time.
It wasn’t just about relaxing, it was about the fact that sometimes there wasn’t a lot ‘to do’. It means I stared for many minutes at one cryptic crossword determined that I could get it (I got three in the I- a record!). It meant that I watched a film I wanted to see for a while (The Hundred Foot Journey – Helen Mirren is in it, it’s about food and it’s set in France, what’s not to love!). It means my walks could go on for hours. It also meant at times I stared out of the top window in the motor home and looked out at the sparse but brilliantly green hills with an occasional sheep munching grass while admiring the top of the sea bouncing on the horizon.
I watched a sheep!!!!!
So, I didn’t just watch a sheep. I kept having ‘ideas’. I’m not the most artistic person in the world or the most creative, I’m not the best cook or photographer or writer but I love doing it and shouldn’t we do more of what we love? At long last that note book that I keep in my bag got some use (it’s there for ‘ideas’) and I found myself scribbling, I wrote two articles and my mind bounced from spending time in my VW van with my pooch and sausage dog (I don’t yet have sausage dog or the VW van but I will!)… to selling potatoes from my garden outside in brown bags to neighbours. I don’t grow potatoes and my garden looks like monkeys have had a riot in it but……. it could happen!
I want to be daring (I’m not) and (an occasional) risk taker (not there yet). I want to try something, take up a new hobby (I know what that is – watch this space!).
I want to say yes when I usually say no.
Putting this into practice as we sat on the beach hiding from the elements in a warm jumper, the sun stayed stubbornly and firmly behind the busy clouds, I was beckoned to get into the ice cold sea. No thanks I said. I sat and watched.
What am I doing watching I thought! Feeling brave I rushed towards the white broth disappearing around my feet. It was freezing! My whole body was saying no, yet I felt excited, I was saying yes. It took a few minutes to submerge myself totally and lift my feet away from the sand allowing the salty water to carry me, for my arms to swim gently. There was only two people brave enough to brave the sea and I was one of them!
I know this blog is a bit me me me this week but I’m excited about so many things. One thing I’ve decided is to share my creative juices on my blog and hopefully with you too! . Amateur pics, attempts at exercise, good and bad recipes, thrifty hints, lifestyle, recycle and upcycling, favourite books, magazines and bargains…. ….and of course my Sunday morning blog!
Hope you’ll enjoy the extra bits! Follow me on my DearMs website if you want email updates so you don’t miss any! Or if you don’t want any extra emails you can unfollow me too! I hope you don’t!
It’s amazing what some time away does for us. Make sure you get your 5 mins, 5 hours or maybe even 5 days to yourself too. Not only will you feel better but you’ll feel better about everyone around you too!
Let your mind wander xx xx
Happy Sunday 🙂