This week I found out that I’d inspired someone without knowing it. It made me smile inside and out and made me think about how we perhaps all inspire people in different ways by just being us.
On this occasion I was particularly taken aback because the said person was my counsellor. I’ve dipped in and out of counselling since I lost Tes and I’m probably coming to the end of this last stint because I’m feeling well again. I actually enjoy going now. The tiny yellow room with mint green sofas and trees waving outside the large window with the well used tissue box on the table has become my comforting friend.
There was a time when I barely got through the door without sobbing. There were times when I just didn’t know what to say. There are times when I just talk and talk and it’s time up. There are times when i’d make excuses and not go.
More recently though I have learnt to enjoy the experience and look forward to sharing my feelings with a person removed from my every day life. I can say anything! ! She won’t cry. She won’t judge. She won’t say that you need to be thankful for this and that or how lucky I’ve been in one way. She doesn’t tell me what to think or pretend it hasn’t happened. That’s why I go because she’s trained to deal with these events. Not like the rest of us just desperately trying to say the right thing (which by the way I’m ever grateful for you even trying).
I digress again! !
During my session this week. My counsellor says she’d like to share something with me. What?? I say eagerly.
I’m on week 4 she says with a shy grin.
I gently clap my hands with excitement.
During our talks I’ve often referred to the fact I’ve taken up running amd a few weeks back she asked how I got into it, I told her about the couch to 5k programme. And there you go. This woman who is helping me has in turn been inspired to do something for herself. And I didn’t even know I’d done it.
So I’d like to also thank you who have inspired me, you might not know it but you have. You inspired me to blog. You inspired me to go for that job. You inspired me to look after myself better. You inspired me to run. You inspired me to be more patient. You inspired me to bake. You inspired me to take photographs. You inspired me to slow down (occasionally!). You inspired me to listen. You inspired me to make difficult decisions. You inspired me to be brave. You inspired me to keep going.
I’d like to remind you how you inspire others by just being you. Its worth remembering how we influence others by what we do, how we behave and who we are.
Talking of running. Time to get up and face the rain and wind. I’m off for a run.
Happy Sunday xx